What I've started to realize is most Americans never really cared about genocide, war crimes, so on. They don't really care about it now. I should have known, but I guess I had to see it to believe it. I feel you my friend, I feel like I'm going insane.
I started painting minis. I've always loved painting but honestly I get frustrated with drawing. Minis provide a good amount of structure and challenge while allowing me to have some creative freedom. Bonus that I end up with cool tokens for my DND games :)