In short, I'm miserable, lonely, and broke. I need to get the fuck out of California and into someplace with rent less than $1000 a month. I also need to find a job that gets me like $25 an hour. I'm good at data entry and formwork and I have a really great voice I have no idea what to do with. I have absolutely no clue what I'm doing and I suck ass at all the important parts of being a person, and all the people who try to help me can't help me or I don't get it because I got the full power of the spectrum radiating inside of my forebrain and it's fucking me up.
I've tried budgeting with spreadsheets and it doesn't work for me. I've tried looking for work but it's a brand new hell every time I open the browser. I hate this. I fucking hate that mental illness fucked me up when I was supposed to figure out my life and now that I'm finding a bit of peace within myself I still have to contend with all the things everyone else has to do and recognizes as shitty but somehow get done while I just suck ass at everything.
Help me.
For me every job starts out okay but after a few years working conditions deteriorate to the point I am falling apart and crying daily. I came to my current job to escape stress and of course it took just two years to ramp up to psyche-breaking levels.
I just mentioned this in another comment to MattsAlt; I have never lasted at a job for more than 3 years in the past 20 of my working life. I get so extremely hostile to the idea of work, or feel just absolutely bored to tears. In the past few years though, the burnout has reached the levels you're describing. It seems that's the case for MattsAlt as well, I guess it must be common to job hop like this?
No it's really not me, because every time, all of my coworkers agree. Workplaces just seem to go to shit s couple years after I arrive. Maybe I am the bearer of a curse.
lol, maybe. Or mayyyyyybe you just have a heightened awareness of worker exploitation and recognize that, objectively, the huge majority of jobs that we are forced to do are garbage. And that rubs off on your coworkers as you slowly, subtly radicalize them.
I assure you I am entirely incapable of convincing people of things even on accident