It sucks enough that I've lost my friend, it sucks even more that I still have to work with him, and it sucks even more that even Hextube doesn't seem to be a place to turn anymore. It sucks the most that I can't even feel my own emotions because of excessive SSRIs.
i tried to post this to c/mentalhealth and it blocked me for some reason
Sorry to hear Wtyp, matters of the heart are never easy to sort out, but it doesn't sound like you did anything wrong. You shot your shot and as bad as rejection is, its not worse than unrequited pining. You'll find someone out there, I know it sounds hollow right now, but there truely are a multitude of compatible souls for everyone. You've always been a friendly voice in chat, the least i can do is return the favor. DM me if you eber need to talk.