Alright, so we pump energy into a chaotic system and obviously the extremes will get more exteme. Stronger hurricanse, colder hurricanse and snap freezes, deeper floods, wet bulb events further north than you think possible, whatever. This is the known unknown.
I am existentially afraid of the unknown unknowns. At what point do the phytoplankton I'm currently breathing the poop of have a mass extinction event? All of human civilization is about to drown on dry land and I spend 5 days a week maintaining software that charges people for turning on their lights.
I crave death I crave oblivion death to america death to capitalism death to me.
Consider it soberly, not drunkenly.
Okay I've been doing this for months and it just makes me want to get drunk.
You aren’t responding rationally to the world ending, you’re responding irrationally to untreated mental illness. You have anxiety. You are drinking to self-medicate. You are posting on the internet to seek validation. There are plenty of excellent and reasonable arguments being made in this thread, and none of them are going to help you because whether or not the world is going to end soon is not the root cause of the way you feel.
You don’t have any information that the rest of us don’t have. We also feel the crushing weight of a potential future full of suffering and death on a global scale, but it’s clear that most of us aren’t responding to it in this way. Even people who agree on the merits, that things are fucked and getting worse, aren’t behaving the way you’re behaving, and that should give you pause.
I’m not saying that your worries are unfounded, because that’s frankly irrelevant. I’m saying that your response to those worries is unhealthy. You either need to find a way to accept the state of the world, or find a way to channel your energy into changing it, but you won’t stop suffering if you can’t find a way to interrupt your current pattern of thought and behavior.
I can guarantee you with absolute conviction that arguing on the internet about whether or not the biosphere might hypothetically collapse one day will not solve anything for you.