But what I'm really upset about is that people aren't communicating and cooperating and being respectful of each other and working together and being social and pushing back the alienation and playing and finding joy.
I'm so fucking isolated these days. This is the closest thing that I have to a social outlet. And so many people in multiplayer games just have no interest in communicating or working together, or have no interest in, like... playing in a way that supports the team and works towards a cooperative goal? Like they're playing by themselves, in a multiplayer lobby, and I absolutely do not understand it and I hate it. I don't understand why people play multiplayer games when they don't wan to play with people.
I sadly resigned to this aspect of the world many years ago, in my League of Legends playing days.
My most successful approach in reaching a good online multiplayer experience is to really make an effort to remember and friend players who are actually at all tolerable to play with, then you can slowly assemble a decent team. I've even a couple actual good friends this way, over the years.