I just need to vent a little bit and get some feedback from people outside of my friends and family. They love me unconditionally and I know they are never unwilling to listen, but I feel like a broken record lately and really can't find the motivation or make it better. I've really been feeling like an insufferable burden because of my pessimism and cynicism around this topic, so I figure why not unload it on some internet strangers and see what insight I can get from some like-minded people.
I work in big corpo and really really hate it on multiple levels. Everyone around me seems to either be blissfully ignorant or they have found a way to swallow their pride and just exist. I am having a lot of trouble doing that and it makes me feel like an unappreciative shithead. I'm in a good position, in a stable company with a lot of great perks and benefits, but I'm just not happy. I hate the industry, the culture, the work itself, but the people around me have been there for 10+ years, so there must be something I'm missing. Am I wrong for not being able to suck it up and cash my check?
Big corporations suck. Startups and SMBs suck even more mostly. Freelancing sucks too. I've done all three at high pay and senior levels.
You can mostly only choose how much it sucks and why, and what particular flavour of shit sandwich sucks least. For many, stability and benefits is what sucks least, even if the company is soul sucking.
The only good companies I've heard of are those with very strong unions or outright constructed on the German Derigisme model with worker board input.