I really have just come to expect nothing good to happen in my life and any efforts I make to improve it will be so counterproductive it's better to do nothing
if nothing good is gonna happen in your own life then you can at least do some good for others by dedicating yourself to serving the people. doesn't need to be under the auspices of a particular organisation, just go engage with the masses somehow in a positive way and keep reading revolutionary thinkers and try to apply what they say to what you see in front of you. nihilism and defeatism isn't good enough comrade, people are out there being massacred by our ruling classes and they don't get the option to embrace nihilism.
It is probably best with an organization or collective and there are many good leftist orgs albeit too scattered; it is best not to encourage individualistic action in a country that already encourages individualism as it is.
you can work with your comrades who are within parties without yourself being involved in any of those parties, not belonging to an org doesn't mean working alone. this is how I choose to organise at present, as i don't see that belonging to any of the orgs available to me would augment my own ability to do the work - instead they would simply restrict my ability to do creative political work in favour of dedication to a particular, flawed line or method. your view that there are "many good leftist orgs" shies away from necessary criticisms of the issues holding those orgs back in favour of a "it's all good!" attitude.
basically, i aim to be a "cadre in lieu of a party" for now, focusing my efforts on pragmatically working for revolutionary goals than on reproducing some sect that has been stuck in its ways for years and will likely never get the masses behind it
if nothing good is gonna happen in your own life then you can at least do some good for others by dedicating yourself to serving the people. doesn't need to be under the auspices of a particular organisation, just go engage with the masses somehow in a positive way and keep reading revolutionary thinkers and try to apply what they say to what you see in front of you. nihilism and defeatism isn't good enough comrade, people are out there being massacred by our ruling classes and they don't get the option to embrace nihilism.
It is probably best with an organization or collective and there are many good leftist orgs albeit too scattered; it is best not to encourage individualistic action in a country that already encourages individualism as it is.
you can work with your comrades who are within parties without yourself being involved in any of those parties, not belonging to an org doesn't mean working alone. this is how I choose to organise at present, as i don't see that belonging to any of the orgs available to me would augment my own ability to do the work - instead they would simply restrict my ability to do creative political work in favour of dedication to a particular, flawed line or method. your view that there are "many good leftist orgs" shies away from necessary criticisms of the issues holding those orgs back in favour of a "it's all good!" attitude.
basically, i aim to be a "cadre in lieu of a party" for now, focusing my efforts on pragmatically working for revolutionary goals than on reproducing some sect that has been stuck in its ways for years and will likely never get the masses behind it
Very well. I think it's good to work with a network of people, but I guess you're already doing that. I'll leave you to it, comrade.