had a bunch of dreams about being a girl and used to pray to wake up as one. this starting hitting right before puberty, before that i was fine
later there's shameful crossdressing to feel some gender euphoria, supportive partners (but most fetishized this stuff and i was already a kinkster so that added more self-doubt for years)
in the 90s and early 00s there was a lack of organized information and my friends were mostly clueless and i hung out with the queer goth/punk kids!
bounced back and forth between whether it was wish fulfillment or not. i've settled on non-binary transfemme or MtF butch but labels suck besides as a way to identify yourself online or to a community
the questioning phase can last months, years, decades even but despite all the horrible political reaction there has never been a better time (except in the future perhaps!) to explore transness and find support.
had a bunch of dreams about being a girl and used to pray to wake up as one. this starting hitting right before puberty, before that i was fine
later there's shameful crossdressing to feel some gender euphoria, supportive partners (but most fetishized this stuff and i was already a kinkster so that added more self-doubt for years)
in the 90s and early 00s there was a lack of organized information and my friends were mostly clueless and i hung out with the queer goth/punk kids!
bounced back and forth between whether it was wish fulfillment or not. i've settled on non-binary transfemme or MtF butch but labels suck besides as a way to identify yourself online or to a community
the questioning phase can last months, years, decades even but despite all the horrible political reaction there has never been a better time (except in the future perhaps!) to explore transness and find support.