Saying “quit meth” is cheating + I’m kinda trying anyways.
I’ve always had problems with food/eating since I was a kid, but it’s gotten pretty suck. I think part of what made me stop being able to see myself as femme was, in fact, becoming so thin, with my gaunt face and bony hips and what I think is some sagging skin from rapid weight loss (I’d really like to get rid of that shit too, especially on my neck).
Last couple weeks I’ve been turning things around, starting to eat more, but I have a difficult time with appetite, and this pickiness I’ve had since I was a kid. Most things I could buy ingredients for and “make at home” are unappealing. I keep going to the store to buy food and walk out with fucking candy.
talk to a doctor if you can before going all out on this kind of thing. in the US it's dieticians who are a registered profession, nutritionists are snakeoil.
once you're just trying to get more calories, eating quickly will let you get more in before the stomach sends its fullness response as those of us with the opposite problem know.