Like I grew up essentially being a homeschooled church kid (who was also abused too) living in a rural rural area, not like a suburb like actual countryside. The homeschooled part is kinda just more that my parents sorta given up on trying after 6th grade. The church kid part was mostly enforced by my parents to try to have a social outlet for me. But at the end of it I just don't know how to talk to people, which has its own set of negative consequences.

It gets worse when any resemblance of community around here is steeped heavily in religion of the evangelical variety. So even if I wanted to I couldn't do anything without being told some nonsense about how everything wrong with me is that I'm a 'lost sheep' that needs to reconnect with god. Including going to get therapy, because I've heard that some of the professionals here is on that BS too.

And the more I'm thinking about it, the more I feel like I'm completely screwed out of having a relatively normal life. Not to mention I found a way to unintentionally self sabotage the first relationship I had.

And this just turned into me rambling about my situation.

    • KhanCipher [none/use name]
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      6 months ago

      Yes and no, it's a bit complicated on the financial side of things.

      Short of it is that I still live with my parents (we've come to an understanding that there was a lot of fucking up that happened, and they've also left religion too) and my 3 siblings. 5 of us are working, and I make the most out of everyone, and also the most stable income. The financial problems are that city (a rural city mind you) has decided that they're all of a sudden going to start enforcing building code after years of not giving a rats ass, since there was a seemingly astroturfed movement to start gentrifying the city in a way.

      So we're staring down a $30,000 cost to have repairs done on a house that we know for a fact has a lot more wrong with it than what city has cited as being out of code.