[CW: (Internalized) Queerphobia]
I have not convinced myself that I should be proud of my queer identity. I've seen 100 reasons to be ashamed of it and 0 to be proud of it.
Pride month seems like a joke to me. It's a month where we're supposed to celebrate ourselves for who we are, but it only generates the opposite attitude for me.
You can be "proud" of yourself for being queer, but that's only if you're not too queer. I am too queer for even other queer people to think I deserve to exist, let alone experience pride in the way I exist.
I will probably go to my first pride this year since I finally have queer friends. I could never push myself to go alone.
I hope you find some queer friends that love you for who you are. We all love you here![cuddle cuddle](https://hexbear.net/pictrs/image/f1f1e643-1e0f-45a2-b4f1-8ac5f215e26e.png)