I'm in desperate need of at least three different types of therapy at this point. General therapy for my abysmal self-image, gender therapy for all my trans related problems, and cognitive behavioral therapy for my ADHD. Feels like I'm so far away from living anything close to a normal, happy life
I felt this for a long time and at some point I made my mind that it is what it is and really stopped bothering. Maybe it pops up once in a while in my head about being happy like ever or whatever. Well I don't know and I'm not gonna moved if I won't find whatever that happiness is.