Got back from family vacation, got on the dreaded Facebook, found out the woman who was my first gf 12 years ago, and subsequently a friend I talked to pretty frequently, had died of liver failure at 33 years old.
Looking back on it, when she was drinking 12 years ago it just seemed like a fun time. I didn't know she sustained that pace for a decade plus. Some other things took a toll too, like an eating disorder.
Anyways, I am fuckin sad, fuck alcohol, it's as bad as heroin but capitalism gotta make that $$$$$
my main addiction is weed. I wanted to stop smoking, so i just stopped buying flower/vape cartridges and it turns out if i don't have it, i don't miss it. But alcohol is def more physically addicting. Weed for me was just the ritual of "guess i better smoke 4 times a day." Working from home made it much worse.
And yet weed is banned and alcohol isnt