Got back from family vacation, got on the dreaded Facebook, found out the woman who was my first gf 12 years ago, and subsequently a friend I talked to pretty frequently, had died of liver failure at 33 years old.
Looking back on it, when she was drinking 12 years ago it just seemed like a fun time. I didn't know she sustained that pace for a decade plus. Some other things took a toll too, like an eating disorder.
Anyways, I am fuckin sad, fuck alcohol, it's as bad as heroin but capitalism gotta make that $$$$$
I’m by no means sober, but when I don’t want to drink but still want the feeling of having a tasty drink with less candy sweetness than American soda, I have found a few good options. Italian bitter sodas like Crodino, Sanbitter and Chinotto. And pathfinder: hemp and root. They have the complexity of a good cocktail without the alcohol. Expensive though.