No. It goes beyond depression. It somehow combines a complete and utter knowledge of the absurd meaninglessness of existence with a form of unhinged terror that transcends fear in to something like ecstasy. Horses are fucking weird. I don't really like being around htem much. Like not in an "I don't like horses" way but more in the way your cousin's unhinged friend tells funny stories but there's an edge of chaotic violence that hints at deeper truths for which you are not prepared way.