I have the privilege of working with marginalized folks so I am trying to slide material class conscious seeds into the communication I have with them as much as I can without losing my position. I have sadly noticed that for example poor folk have often fully internalized the all consuming neoliberal self-loathing and individualization that we live in and truly think it is them who are the problem. I want to at least raise class consciousness, to contribute to deprogramming people around me and if nothing else, make someone see the systemic issue rather than blaming themselves or othe proles. I have no idea if this matters or not, but I have hope it does.

I have a kid who honestly has a fairly low chance of "making it" with adhd in this shitty system. I also consider climate change to be a non-debatable justification for getting rid of capitalism so I think I would be willing to go all the way to whatever the situation demands of me, because I can't think of anything better to spend or lose my life on than making this change happen.

I know I really struggle to exist with awareness of all the unnecessary war, violence and plunder that we seemingly can't do anything about. I would rather do somerhing than not. I don't consider my individual life that important that I couldn't trade it for a better timeline for future generations.