Long story short he's back at me again because I asked him for $5 so I could grab smokes, even though I lied and said it was to buy a coffee (fuck him). Laid into me about how I suck and I'm a parasite.
Like I said in the title it puts my self-esteem in the dumps because I can't just move away and tell him to eat shit and die and never speak to him again. I'm beholden to this fucking monster that hates me.
And the funny part is I had a plan to quit smoking this weekend now I'm saying fuck it to that because what's the point?
Sounds like he is the failure, how can he call himself dad and then act like this towards his child? And the parasite. Feeding on your struggles to make himself feel superior. Feeding on your dependance so he has someone to stand on top of.
Instead of uplifting or helping you he feeds his ego from your misery.
Your dad failed you, not the other way around.