Long story short he's back at me again because I asked him for $5 so I could grab smokes, even though I lied and said it was to buy a coffee (fuck him). Laid into me about how I suck and I'm a parasite.
Like I said in the title it puts my self-esteem in the dumps because I can't just move away and tell him to eat shit and die and never speak to him again. I'm beholden to this fucking monster that hates me.
And the funny part is I had a plan to quit smoking this weekend now I'm saying fuck it to that because what's the point?
You are cool as hell.
Please quit smoking if you can. Not for him, but for your health. You deserve better.
I believe in you, you're not a failure!
<-a Dirt_Owl cheering for youSounds like he is the failure, how can he call himself dad and then act like this towards his child? And the parasite. Feeding on your struggles to make himself feel superior. Feeding on your dependance so he has someone to stand on top of.
Instead of uplifting or helping you he feeds his ego from your misery.
Your dad failed you, not the other way around.
Tell him he can't insult my comrade like that.
I always see you bumping peoples threads in mutual aid, and I think little things like that are a great measure of character. You're always there, even if you can't help monetarily, you help with pushing the posts up the algorithm.
You're a good egg. A great bean.
your dad's wrong. you don't suck, and you're not a parasite. the earth belongs to all of us
When I log on to the hex site you are one of the comrades I always know will have a smart, often funny, take on whatever is being discussed. Don't think I've ever seen a comment or post from you and thought anything besides
. I can't even say the same about all my own posts and comments.Soros needs his foot soldiers as do we all here.
I wish I saw this thread earlier, but Pete Walker wrote about assholes like your dad and how to survive them and ultimately decrease their parasitic influence on you in the present and in the future.
That's right. Your dad is the parasite between the two of you. He's emotionally draining you for his own benefit and fuck him for that.
https://www.amazon.com/Complex-PTSD-Surviving-RECOVERING-CHILDHOOD/dp/1492871842
The book and workbook are on annas-archive. Prolly libgen as well.
Sounds like you and I have had a similar living situation on occasion.
Youre a good soul man. They cant bring us down.
Nah comrade, you're one of the best people on the site! Still remember you being there when my did died a few years ago. Still gonna remember that, so you make sure to remember all the good you've done for people here.
Thanks. Haven't seen you in a bit, but I don't go into the megathread much.
Yeah, been less active over the last year, that's a big part of it (plus not being able to access the site on mobile for a while)
You are one of the best users here, always posting and commeting good or funny content. Some parents/family members are ungrateful and can't see the amazing people they have, fuck them.
Friend, you have brought the people here so much joy and wisdom. My life, and the lives of many others, has been made richer and more joyful by your humor, your insights, your companionship.
I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. It's awful not being able to live the image of who you think you should be. It's awful to be dependent on someone who does not appreciate or respect you. You deserve better than this and I hope you will have it.
Thanks. It means a lot. I'm feeling a bit better now. The USA is a paradise for domestic abusers. My dad verbally abused my mom and her and I couldn't leave because fucking housing isn't a human right so we were stuck at home. Like I said it feels like it's designed that way on purpose to keep the victims trapped.
You literally make me so happy and you being the first person to hit up my post rehab post made me so happy bc I still get to talk to you! I just spent a week living with my abusers. I'm hurt. I want to slam fent. But I want to confirm I'm not the monsters who raised me. I only have cash app and I have no idea how much is left. I'll throw you all I have so dm me yr $app Update: I am somehow negative on cash app lmao. But I can like mail you a vape or some black spirits. No trauma victim should be kept from their nicotine
I only have cash app and I have no idea how much is left. I'll throw you all I have so dm me yr $app
Thanks but keep your money you need it besides I can't take donations atm.
