CW: troubling thoughts about global crisis
Figured I would add a content warning bc would not want to read this on a bad day lol
I actually feel crazy sometimes. How am I supposed to accept what marxism tells me the ruling class is willing to do to maintain power and reconcile it with the technology they have without denialism and not feel like a conspiracy theorist. I will see new tech like ai and, especially when the tech is hyped up, wonder what the bourgeois want it for. What might they be developing it to do? They aren't blind, they know what is to come when the earth gets too hot and they aren't doing anything to prevent it. Which leads me to believe they are more focused on insuring their survival which of course implies the automation of our labor, likely through ai which would explain their interest in it.
I think I have a strong pattern seeking brain and I want to connect all the dots yk? Tie everything in to one grand understanding. I know that this is likely impossible, many of the things that are done and invested in are likely just solely for the sake of profit. Not everything is a calculated malice. But some of it definitely is, some, likely many, of the ruling class are very conscious of their class position and intend to maintain it through whatever means necessary. I find this internal struggle difficult to manage. I know that my desire for a grand theory is rooted in terror because my response for fear has always been an attempt at understanding and so I am distrustful of this want. Yet, my fear is not unfounded, it is certain that I and all people of all oppressed classes are in danger and it is certain who is responsible. So I am at an impasse. It seems I have three options.
I can
- feed my fear by giving into conspiracy, let myself find temporary comfort in a constructed reality that validates my inaction
- give into denialism and pretend someone will do something and everything will be ok
- live the rest of my life in a constant state of dread for the famine and slaughter that is already inevitable
I hate y'all for what you did to me (affectionate)
I am actively choosing option 3 daily and will continue to do so because it is the only choice that empowers action but I constantly worry about falling into either of the 2 other thought patterns accidentally or without my notice. Do y'all stress about this as well?
Sometimes it does feel that way when you're being bombarded by some bourgeois media propaganda trying to convince you that your eyes don't see, your ears don't hear and your brain can't think for itself. But then you see the proof of what communists have been saying, day after day, somehow still not convincing enough people but pushing more and more of them into the right direction.
It's an uphill battle and will always be as long as the ruling class owns the media, education, and all the other subtle ways that public opinion can be manipulated to serve the status quo. But it's one that we ought to keep fighting and get as much of the working class as we can to question the system and dare to imagine that capitalism is not the end of history.
This is especially true of anti-Chinese propaganda & the state of the world economy.
The bourgeois media ALWAYS claims that the economy is doing great, despite the clear evidence to the contrary.
I am very afraid of how ai will affect this. If the ruling class is able to fully construct an automated or self-perpetuating and convincing false reality I think we are fucked. We should probably put thought into damaging data centers. Investment into augmented reality is also concerning but I don't think the american working class is foolish enough to tie their own blindfold. Right?
I suppose this doesn't need said to a comrade. We both already know better than to drool over tech treats lol. I'm just venting I think. Humanity will prevail I'm sure, I'm just highly impatient about it.
At least for the moment, AI tends to produce pretty shitty stuff that is easily debunkable, but then again people will believe anything and not care when they are revealed months later..
In any case we should absolutely wreck some data centers lol
The llms and treat printers can only make their propaganda faster, not stronger. And declining material conditions will pierce right through their false reality just like they do now