Hey folks, long time poster/commenter. I haven't been a good leftist in a while. I had some pretty severe mental health problems I needed to focus on, and getting my career on track. I've forgotten a lot of theory, and fuck if it doesn't look bleak as hell out there. I can't see any way out except third world maoism, and that's a longshot. But past that life just felt more fun when I wasn't constantly thinking about politics. I think some of that was because my leftism was mostly online. I did what i could in person but had limited options. But to be honest what can I do other than mutual aid? Americans are too stupid to ever see past capitalism, there's no local governance I can affect, and anything else is just adventurism. Please pull me back, I know too much to even pretend to be liberal or conservative.
You are not the hero of the story.
You are not responsible for single-handedly fixing the world when there are legions organized around a project that continues to destroy it.
If all you can do is give a few bucks and pair of socks to somebody without a home, that's what you do.
If all you can do is work a soup kitchen a few times a year, that's what you do.
If all you can do is occasionally help a person bring in their groceries from their car, that's what you do.
If all you can do is the small things, do the small things.