I will preface this by saying: this is nothing to do with the YanKKKoid election.

Anyway, I don't know...I'm just so tired all the time, I feel like I've been defeated by this shitty system.

I did everything our elders told us to do (got two good degrees, learned several skills outside of it etc), and after a while of being humiliated, degraded and talked down at by people at the local unemployment office, then finding a way to get money again...I just can't anymore. Things that used to make me feel happy don't anymore, I've all but stopped even trying to have a social or love life after like 2 years of having barely any money (I've probably been without a love life for at least 5-6 idk anymore shrug-outta-hecks ).

And despite what the chuds say, it doesn't even feel fulfilling to work, knowing that unemployment is right around the corner at any moment for whatever reason. It's also compounded by everything just getting more expensive, and all of my family always putting me down for making bad choices etc sadness

idk how anyone finds the energy to do all the proper "life" stuff anymore, it's all so exhausting.

Am I making any sense at all? kitty-birthday-sad

  • sewer_rat_420 [he/him, any]
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    a month ago

    This is naturally how late stage capitalism is supposed to make you feel. Remember that no matter what anyone has told you, none of this is due to personal failure, just systemic failure (or systemic success from the bourgeouisie perspective).

    If you have 6 days that are impossible and 1 day where you can find just one good thing, however small, that fulfills you, then not all is lost. You cant do it all and you arent expected to do it all, just do what you can do for yourself. Dont spend time worrying about what you arent doing or fretting that you dont have the energy. If all you can do is go to work and lay in bed after, thats fine.

    I hope things improve for you soon and remember you always have a legion of internet tankies behind you meow-hug