I'm not sure I've ever known and am not certain I will. I can be happy in a moment, but that goes away. Meds help me shrug it off, and I don't tend to dwell on existential shit like this for long, but like...I dunno that I was cut out for this world, yo.
Also this isn't a cry for help and im not particularly sad or upset right now, I was just walking one of the pups and thought to myself "if I can't be happy I'm gonna make sure these fuckers are."
Maybe it's just my default human condition lol
it's uncomfortably close to saying "greed is human nature" for me.
It doesn't have to be a monetary thing, more like ambition, or comparing oneself to others, examining paths untaken
yeah i think i get where you're coming from, that's fair.