Literally cannot bare it anymore.
When I wipe my butt it starts to fucking bleed, it's horrible. Like, I don't want to get into details, but after a few wipes it starts hurting and the paper wipes get bloody. Imagine wiping your ass with sandpaper, it's basically that, but somehow replicated with regular toilet paper.
I have to go shower every single time I poo to actually clean my butt.
As of writing this, it's 1 A.M and I just pooed, couldn't wipe as usual, but as I mentioned, it's 1 A.M. If I were to attempt to clean myself in the shower, i'd wake everyone up. So, i can't rinse butt,.
I am writing this with a half wiped butt. Buy me a bidet, please
try wiping with wet toilet paper OP. you obviously have to take care not to soak it, just damp. i've been doing this my whole life and my butthole is very clean. doesn't beat a bidet but it works, and you should be able to get clean with your current condition.