Every single day goes by like any other day, a cycle of endless repetition, stuck in samsara

But yeah, christmas hasn't felt like anything special since I was a kid and honestly I dread it every year. Lots of ptsd from working in retail my entire adult life, or being forced to go to mandatory company holiday parties, to having to spend it with my father-in-law at his mom's house, as he loses his temper over something trvial, yells at his daughter, and causes a scene. Sometimes I get money though, which is cool.