In How Can I Get Through to You?, family therapist Terrence Real tells how his sons were initiated into patriarchal thinking even as their parents worked to create a loving home in which antipatriarchal values prevailed. He tells of how his young son Alexander enjoyed dressing as Barbie until boys playing with his older brother witnessed his Barbie persona and let him know by their gaze and their shocked, disapproving silence that his behavior was unacceptable:
Without a shred of malevolence, the stare my son received transmitted a message. You are not to do this. And the medium that message was broadcast in was a potent emotion: shame. At three, Alexander was learning the rules. A ten second wordless transaction was powerful enough to dissuade my son from that instant forward from what had been a favorite activity. I call such moments of induction the “normal traumatization” of boys.
To indoctrinate boys into the rules of patriarchy, we force them to feel pain and to deny their feelings.
I already feel this with my son. The fact that a radically anti-patriarchal home environment could be undone by a silent 10 second interaction is maddening. My entire childhood experience with gender was focused on shame and how shameful it is to be girly. I don’t want that for my sons and I don’t want the impacts of that for my daughters.
For most people, kids are the end, not the means. So there is no point. No larger purpose. There’s a really toxic idea that anyone who was not logically and consciously planned was “a mistake”. I think that unconscious attitude plays a lot into how we’re meant to view the process of getting pregnant. You’re supposed to completely cease reproductive function from the moment it’s physically possible right up until “the time is right”, try vigorously for the pregnancy, and then resume birth control until “the time is right” again. And the secret sauce is that “the time is right” actually means “when the time is least inconvenient for capital”.
In reality, I would wager that most pregnancies are not achieved this way. Even most people I know who have tried for kids basically just took out the birth control and continued sex as normal until they got lucky. And they weren’t trying to maximize the utility of the planet. It was an end, not a means.
I don’t know if any of that helps but there’s my rant and I appreciate you clarification because I also thought you were JAQing off
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