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  • TankieTanuki [he/him]
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    3 years ago

    No two circumcisions (or penises for that matter) are identical. My cut left me with little sensation in my dick, which makes it difficult for me to orgasm. I also have zero gliding mechanism remaining because I got cut "high and tight" style, so I can't masturbate for long before it gets tears and bleeds. Even if sex feels amazing you never know what you're missing out on (NSFW example), like a person born colorblind. I once heard an intact cis-man describe the sensation as "if I could lend you a foreskin for one day you would flee the country and change your identity to keep it forever". I'm a bisexual man and I love playing with cute men's foreskins and it makes me sad when I compare theirs to my scar---which disturbs me additionally because I see it as two pieces of dissimilar skin tissue (mucousal and regular) that are fused together in a Frankenstein way. There is also the matter of the trauma from the pain (it's not possible to sufficiently aenesthetize a newborn as they could for an adult going through the same procedure), which can effect a permanent change in personality even without a conscious memory of the event. It fucks me up to think about how something like that could have changed me psychologically, even if the possibility is small.