It's a question I've constantly wrestled with in my head, Disco Elysium didn't help with this with jokes like being a fascist cause your gut told you to.
Part of me thinks there is an interplay in the way philosophy might affect your personality, and personality affects your philosophical beliefs. How do you wrestle with that?
I think its pretty clear that my personality and beliefs affect each other, but I don't know which has more sway over the other.
Ideally, to me, my philosophical beliefs affect my personality. I try to focus my efforts on more social and academic endeavors in a way that I hope makes me a better communist, while trying to take a principled stance against reactionary tendencies in my own thoughts and actions.
At the same time, however, I know I wasn't born with the beliefs that I currently have. I arrived at this position through years, even decades, of analysis of myself and my environment to uncover a coherant set of beliefs that I felt comfortable embracing.
It's an interesting question, and I guess I haven't really wrestled with the idea until now. Up until now at least, I was comfortable in the idea that I hold beliefs that are morally good (but who doesn't think this) and that was enough because I don't really wish ill will on others and I am not in a position of power in which I can harm anyone anyways.