I'm going to fucking break. I can't keep up functioning like a normal person. It's an endless cycle of overextending myself, crashing and painfully getting back up. Everything I do towards making myself and my life better takes away so much energy that I stall and crash. For every step forward, it seems like I take two backwards. And the worst thing is that people don't understand. It's a cycle of extreme stress that I don't want to keep enduring, it keeps fucking coming, I'm like constantly behind. It never stops.

Sorry for the rant, I needed to vent somewhere into the void.