When I was a kid one day I prayed for a rocket ship and never got one. As an adult I have prayed desperately for other things that are genuinely beyond my control. I don't really believe in anything though. Belief in a specific God with obscure rules where you can easily prove the lore was written by specific people, at different times, for different purposes, all of them seeking to justify their own existence and elevate themselves over others? I physically cringe at anyone who takes scripture seriously. If you need a middle man between you and God, I genuinely think that you are pathetic and intellectually lazy. But of course I won't tell anyone this.