I mean this less poetically than that title might make it seem (high btw so post may suck generally)

Maybe this is just a me problem for one of potentially several reasons (autistic and generally inexperienced in life) but I've realized that I had basically assumed an extremely simplified kind of capitalism ran everything, ignoring the human layer through which it operates. Like, obviously it provides the incentives to do shitty things, and everything produced under capitalism is therefore influenced/tainted by it in infinite ways both seen and unseen, but. Some people would still be assholes under socialism probably. Sometimes the relationship of a team results in a creative product that can't easily be reproduced without them. IDK. It's not Just Money in the real world, even if that's an undeniable influence

Also like. This is more likely inexperience/splitting on my part, but not having a job for 2 years while also brain poisoning myself here with you guys and through breadtube and a bit of actual theory and shit, I came into my current "job" as an amazon driver far more cynically than maybe I should have been. Like, obviously the owners of the contracted company I actually work for are greedy profiteering assholes whose only motives for treating their workers humanely is so that they don't quit faster than they can be replaced, but that doesn't mean every kind word isn't

im losing my own thread here nvm. hope you got some value from reading this IG

  • SkolShakedown [he/him, any]
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    2 years ago

    idk man. I feel the same way, just that I prefer to believe the cynicism came first. before I even got radicalized I saw the world driving off a cliff, I just couldn't put it in fancy words beyond lib culture war issues. I think I still would have been unfulfilled in this country just by my nature.

    definitely not saying it's a good thing, it's not very useful. but it's a natural reaction to being sentient and online in 2022. if that means anything.