I mean this less poetically than that title might make it seem (high btw so post may suck generally)
Maybe this is just a me problem for one of potentially several reasons (autistic and generally inexperienced in life) but I've realized that I had basically assumed an extremely simplified kind of capitalism ran everything, ignoring the human layer through which it operates. Like, obviously it provides the incentives to do shitty things, and everything produced under capitalism is therefore influenced/tainted by it in infinite ways both seen and unseen, but. Some people would still be assholes under socialism probably. Sometimes the relationship of a team results in a creative product that can't easily be reproduced without them. IDK. It's not Just Money in the real world, even if that's an undeniable influence
Also like. This is more likely inexperience/splitting on my part, but not having a job for 2 years while also brain poisoning myself here with you guys and through breadtube and a bit of actual theory and shit, I came into my current "job" as an amazon driver far more cynically than maybe I should have been. Like, obviously the owners of the contracted company I actually work for are greedy profiteering assholes whose only motives for treating their workers humanely is so that they don't quit faster than they can be replaced, but that doesn't mean every kind word isn't
im losing my own thread here nvm. hope you got some value from reading this IG
I mean cynicism makes you see the world and intentions of people in a very negative light quite often, but that doesn't have to affect you. Wether someone treats you humanely because they are ignorant of the world and their assigned role in it, or wether they are malicious and play their part knowingly, it changes little. If it looks like a dog, walks like a dog and barks like a dog, then it's a dog. Sure, it means I see people in the worst light generally, but here's the trick.
That's just normal. It's a part of life that they are the way they are, they aren't here by chance, and they are not driven by some dark and evil force, just the uncaring whims of reality. There is no reason to hate them for what they are, because ultimatly they are a product of their circumstance. Just like you.
You can see people who act against your interest with all the cynicism you want and still not go mad over it. It's the negative emotions that destroy you and let you feel like shit, self doubt, frustration, what not. It's not the cynicism itself that is the problem, it's your reaction to it. But why mald over things beyond your control?
You don't need to become an ignorant twat just to cope with that one life you have. You don't have to drink all the kool aid to get to a good point mentally.
Stoicism has its problems as a school of philosophy, but there is something to it that greatly helps to cope with living for me. It helps you see your own, as well as others faults, as just facts that don't need to result in a negative reaction. At the same time you can still indulge in the good life when it comes around occasionally.
I don't know if I could help you, we are all different and I only got my own experience to work with, but I felt like I might be able to give advice on coping with cynicism.