But I cannot stay in Germany. I do not function here. I cannot do anything. Literally. So I will be going back to Ireland, in spite of having no job or housing there, in spite of getting 0 positive or just 0 any responses from jobs and housing there. So I will be homeless. I will be jobless. With my medical debt growing, since I won't have an income to pay it, but I still don't falter, because the worth of being able to communicate freely is one one may not fully comprehend until they're secluded.
How awful, have you thought about how homelessness might look for you? My brother had a car he slept in, I always imagine if/when I was homeless I would sleep by a dumpster in an alley. I figured I'd be out of the way & would wake up when the businesses that used the dumpster started throwing stuff in it in the early morning.
I can very temporarily crash on my friend's floor and then I'll contact the homeless org if they can put me somewhere. I don't have the income to ever own a car. All I know is I'm never taking up people I haven't known for a while and met multiple times in person on housing offers. Way too much people trying to guilt the homeless into being sex slaves...
ah what the heck? i suppose that's true, probably something i don't think of due to how awful it is...
what are the homeless orgs like though? over here, it's a bit of a mixed bag, esp for people with mental health issues. they do good work ofc, there's only so much they can do with so little funding & so much consternation
I have never interacted with them apart from messaging them when I was going homeless before I ended up in Germany to avoid that, and the response I got from them was so stupid and insensitive I opted to try going to a country of which language I don't speak and know no one in. Based on the experience of my friends who were homeless and used those services, they're very unsafe for queer individuals. Sex abuse happens. So does violence. The people who are supposed to help ignore it or target the victim. It's grim. But I genuinely cannot stay here.