Here's the fun part: I feel the guilt because my brain says it should be doing something productive, but then it doesnt want to do anything productive. It's a perfect system and my life is fine, thanks for asking.
I have actually had a few times where my drive to be super productive actually kicked in and I've had to have someone tell me to stop and give my body a break. Those were fun. Protestant work ethic is the best :agony-deep:
I don't know if it will help you any or not comrade, but you deserve to enjoy a video game. Nobody has the right to rob you of some relaxing recreation. And you wouldn't be hurting anybody by spending some time with Kim Kitsurage
Feel free to not answer of course, but have you ever looked into whether or not you have ADHD?
I thought I was just afflicted with Protestant work ethic disorder for a long time because of that exact experience, but I did a little more digging and turns out that's just cause my brain's reward centers are fucky so I get stuck scrolling even when I want to do something else. Now I get to make an insurance company buy me amphetamines to take every morning
I've suspected. Just haven't really had the time/money to seek an official diagnosis.
I think I managed well enough in school to avoid anyone really bringing up the possibility, but I definitely fit the pattern of procrastination followed by an intense burst of effort to keep myself afloat followed by burnout.
Fun story: I almost failed a particular class in high school because I couldn't keep on top of the homework but somehow did better than my friends who were succeeding in the class on the AP exam
Hahaha yeah that's pretty much exactly my experience, I've got a great memory which allowed me to compensate grade-wise for never doing homework or studying in grade school, and that procrastination-allnighters-burnout cycle kept me going through college. I finally got diagnosed during the pandemic since the constant WFH was
Totally get the time/funds thing though, that kept me from starting the diagnosis process for quite awhile. If you're ever in a spot where you've got the means and are thinking about getting one but need a hand getting started with, it def feel free to @ me, super happy to share my experiences with it. For me it was a lot easier to jump through all the hoops they put in front of treatment for "can't jump through hoops disorder" once I knew what the process was
Here's the fun part: I feel the guilt because my brain says it should be doing something productive, but then it doesnt want to do anything productive. It's a perfect system and my life is fine, thanks for asking.
I have actually had a few times where my drive to be super productive actually kicked in and I've had to have someone tell me to stop and give my body a break. Those were fun. Protestant work ethic is the best :agony-deep:
I don't know if it will help you any or not comrade, but you deserve to enjoy a video game. Nobody has the right to rob you of some relaxing recreation. And you wouldn't be hurting anybody by spending some time with Kim Kitsurage
Feel free to not answer of course, but have you ever looked into whether or not you have ADHD?
I thought I was just afflicted with Protestant work ethic disorder for a long time because of that exact experience, but I did a little more digging and turns out that's just cause my brain's reward centers are fucky so I get stuck scrolling even when I want to do something else. Now I get to make an insurance company buy me amphetamines to take every morning
I've suspected. Just haven't really had the time/money to seek an official diagnosis.
I think I managed well enough in school to avoid anyone really bringing up the possibility, but I definitely fit the pattern of procrastination followed by an intense burst of effort to keep myself afloat followed by burnout.
Fun story: I almost failed a particular class in high school because I couldn't keep on top of the homework but somehow did better than my friends who were succeeding in the class on the AP exam
Hahaha yeah that's pretty much exactly my experience, I've got a great memory which allowed me to compensate grade-wise for never doing homework or studying in grade school, and that procrastination-allnighters-burnout cycle kept me going through college. I finally got diagnosed during the pandemic since the constant WFH was
Totally get the time/funds thing though, that kept me from starting the diagnosis process for quite awhile. If you're ever in a spot where you've got the means and are thinking about getting one but need a hand getting started with, it def feel free to @ me, super happy to share my experiences with it. For me it was a lot easier to jump through all the hoops they put in front of treatment for "can't jump through hoops disorder" once I knew what the process was