I've felt very similarly to you in the past tbh, I was usually able to handle it by just burying myself in my education in a field I felt was worthwhile. If you don't have that option (not saying it wasn't just delaying the problem) then perhaps you might have to develop the skill that is being your own friend.
It's not a solution, but neither is wishing to go back to a time before you came to recognize the cruelty of the system you live in. But being able to amuse yourself with your own weirdness was really useful to me, and I think it made people like me more (though I could just be imagining it.)
This really resonates with me, thanks for sharing :)
But being able to amuse yourself with your own weirdness was really useful to me, and I think it made people like me more (though I could just be imagining it.
Especially this part. I noticed a tendency with my spouse where she tries to mask her weirdness even when she’s alone, and that causes me to notice the same thing with myself. We’re improving :)
I've felt very similarly to you in the past tbh, I was usually able to handle it by just burying myself in my education in a field I felt was worthwhile. If you don't have that option (not saying it wasn't just delaying the problem) then perhaps you might have to develop the skill that is being your own friend.
It's not a solution, but neither is wishing to go back to a time before you came to recognize the cruelty of the system you live in. But being able to amuse yourself with your own weirdness was really useful to me, and I think it made people like me more (though I could just be imagining it.)
This really resonates with me, thanks for sharing :)
Especially this part. I noticed a tendency with my spouse where she tries to mask her weirdness even when she’s alone, and that causes me to notice the same thing with myself. We’re improving :)
That's nice to hear, good to know I'm on some kinda wavelength