vent post please ignore

I'm so sick of being a shameful social embarrassment, holy shit how pathetic do you have to be to be incapable of talking to people ON THE INTERNET

Fuck talking to people in general

  • ivy@lemmy.ml
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    7 months ago

    I think my problem is it's impossible for me to treat any communications channel as a "space". Sometimes I deliberately zone into a Mastodon instance to post huge angry open letters at the admin because it just doesn't bother me.

    I recommend reading fiction it gives a lot of perspective on life even if you're just kind of analyzing how it was written. I got stuck reading nonfiction for too long 2021-2023

    Fiction allows me to kind of absorb other people's experiences in a cryptic way. Maybe I'm out of my fucking mind or maybe I'm over-explaining a basic concept familiar to everyone who did better in school ☺️

    • ashinadash [she/her]
      hexagon
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      7 months ago

      Wow, I respect your inability to be bothered by writing huge angry letters at admins, sounds non-stressful. Between the autism and such I'm basically not allowed to be angry at all or people will scream at me. Out of the many reasons I don't do much antagonising people these days, one of the big ones is I do not have the social energy to be fighting with people who think I am the great fuckin satan.

      I am an enthusiastic reader of fiction, I've been reading novels and novellas and bits of internet fiction constantly for the last three years. The conflict I describe is ironically over someone's internet fic, so uh rip. Also I guarantee I did not do better than you in school lol