it's not inherently a trans narrative but i definitely resonated in the way of feeling an overwhelming obligation to express the most extreme form of masculinity i could because deep down i felt like a woman and didn't want anyone to know that. the whole story is kinda about that (minus the woman part, but who knows, right?); the obligation to outwardly display the most toxic form of masculinity they can because they're surrounded by other men with the same obligation, even though this obligation is total bullshit and leads to horrible things. i wasn't in an underground-fighting-ring-turned-terrorist-group, but i was around a lot of really toxic men that felt a bit like that.