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  • Tachanka [comrade/them]
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    2 years ago

    I mean I can literally see and hear things if I want to, I just understand they're imaginary. Like, if I've listened to a song enough times in my life, and I know all the lyrics, and instrumentation by heart, I can play it back in my head perfectly without having any kind of playback device. Not being able to visualize things in your mind is called aphantasia, which is a separate issue entirely from whether you have an internal monologue or not. What distinguishes both of these things from hallucination is being able to control them somewhat, and understanding that they're coming from inside and are not external. So "hallucinating at will" is kind of a contradiction since a hallucination usually comes with the ambiguity that you aren't entirely sure if it's real or not and/or you can't control it. Like, when tripping on mushrooms, I knew my hallucinations weren't real, but I wasn't able to control them. A schizophrenic isn't always sure whether or not their hallucinations are real, and on top of that, they need medication to control them.

    • SerLava [he/him]
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      2 years ago

      By hallucinate at will, I just mean conjure false images that literally show up in your own field of view, at will. I think when one neurotypical person says to another, "I can see things in my imagination - I can picture them", that other totally neurotypical person might understand that statement as "I can create literal visual images that float around and look real", and assume that either they or the other person is neuroatypical.

      • Tachanka [comrade/them]
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        2 years ago

        I just mean conjure false images that literally show up in your own field of view, at will

        i can kinda do that, but it's easier if i close my eyes. Like I can easily imagine an ant crawling on my desk right now, and if I focus hard enough on imagining such a thing, I can literally "see it" while understanding that it's not real. It just goes away if I stop focusing on imagining it. I hope that makes sense.

        • keepcarrot [she/her]
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          2 years ago

          I can imagine a desk that looks like mine with ants crawling around on it, but it's clearly in my head and not my eyes perceiving the desk. Also, it's muffled.

          I do have some N2O on the desk right now...

        • blobjim [he/him]
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          2 years ago

          It's not really a hallucination though, just a somewhat vague visualization like a dream is. Aren't most humans also capable of hallucinating by actually seeing things in the world that aren't there? But it usually has to be induced somehow by drugs.