Just proud of myself and wanted to brag, but I missed that post from a few days ago. AMA about any of these if you're curious:
books
January
Jane Austen - Northanger Abbey
Robert Nichols - Theft is Property!
Cixin Liu - The Three-Body Problem
Tom O'Neill - Chaos: Charles Manson, the CIA, and the Secret History of the Sixties
Andre Alexis - Fifteen Dogs
Aph Ko - Racism as Zoological Witchcraft
Various Authors - Love After the End: An Anthology of Two-Spirit and Indigiqueer Fiction
Jenny Chan, Mark Selden, & Pun Ngai - Dying for an iPhone
Ursula K. LeGuin - The Found and the Lost (13 novellas)
W. E. B. Du Bois - The Souls of Black Folk
Brian Moore - The Magician's Wife
February
Charles Taylor - Modern Social Imaginaries
Marcel Proust - Swann's Way
William Blum - Killing Hope
Michelle Good - Five Little Indians
Kristen J. Sollée - Witches, Sluts, Feminists
March
Catherine Hernandez - Scarborough
Jane Jacobs - The Life and Death of Great American Cities
Omar El Akkad - What Strange Paradise
Steve Klabnik and Carol Nichols - The Rust Programming Language
Esi Edugyan - Washington Black
April
Clayton Thomas-Müeller - Life in the City of Dirty Water
Marcel Proust - In the Shadow of Young Girls in Flower
Aditya Bhargava - Grokking Algorithms
Cixin Liu - The Dark Forest
May
Karl Marx - Capital Vol. 3
June
Peter Watts - Blindsight
John P. Clark - Between Earth and Empire
Marcel Proust - Guermantes Way
Jessica Fern - Polysecure
Sara Collins - Confessions of Frannie Langton
G. W. F. Hegel - Introduction to the Philosophy of History
July
Xiran Jay Zhao - Iron Widow
Kim Moody - Tramps and Trade Union Travelers
Elena Ferrante - My Brilliant Friend
Itzik Ben-Gan - T-SQL Fundamentals
August
Homer - The Illiad
Keith Basso - Wisdom Sits in Places: Landscape and Language Among the Western Apache
September
Marcel Proust - Sodom and Gomorrah
Richard Lachmann - First-Class Passengers on a Sinking Ship: Elite Politics and the Decline of Great Powers
October
Marcel Proust - The Prisoner
James Ladyman and Don Ross - Every Thing Must Go
November
Marcel Proust - The Fugitive
Gabor Maté & Daniel Maté - The Myth of Normal
Nora Roberts - Origin in Death
Stephanie Kelton - The Deficit Myth
December
Marcel Proust - Finding Time Again
Tyler A. Shipley - Canada in the World: Settler Capitalism and the Colonial Imagination
Adrienne Maree Brown - Grievers
Albert Camus - The Myth of Sisyphus
I probably read 50 books worth of posts in the year, but I can't sit down long enough to actually read a book; which is very frustrating because I want to.
And no I don't think it's ADHD specifically (I have a different diagnosis), I think it's mainly anxiety making it difficult for me to process thoughts that aren't immediately related to like... living & existential torment.
Do you feel anxiety when you try to start a book, or is the act of opening one just too much?
For me I never read fiction for a long time because I wanted to learn things, and learn things that were directly relevant to life or at least to the history that got us to this point. If I couldn't see where it connected it felt like a waste of time.
I start reading a book, but can't get far in it before thoughts start creeping in my mind about stuff that's going on with me & then I can't focus to read what's going on in the book anymore.
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I generally just have an extreme amount of intrusive thoughts about everything. I don't really have a good way of managing it & meditation has just never seemed like a good option to me. Maybe some of that is ideology, but I also feel like I just need a constant stream of new thoughts to keep the darkness out.
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IDK, I guess not. It may take me time to articulate responses though.
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I may actually end up going to bed soon, but please send me a message in my DMs so that I remember to say something when I wake up.