• FourteenEyes [he/him]
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    7 months ago

    This is... an immense relief really. Those exact things but also arson and dismemberment and self-harm and all the other nasty shit that runs through my head. I'm sure I've mentioned it before but I was SA'd as a 6 year old child by another child of the same age but a bigger than me, nothing violent or penetrative just touching while I didn't understand what was happening really and later anxieties over it. I'm sure being raised Catholic and being convinced I was Hell-bound for it didn't help. I've fought all sorts of intrusive thoughts since I was young and it added to my anxiety, even though IRL I wouldn't hurt a fly and I've been told directly I don't have a cruel bone in my body. To know that other people have this flavor of horrifying shit flash unbidden through their head is oddly comforting.