I'm super squeamish about asking for help from people I know in real life. I'd be way more comfortable working with a comrade of basically any stripe. I don't care if you know more or less than me - teaching is beneficial, being taught is beneficial.

Done enough front end to know I hate it, but I'll share what I know.

Where I'm at experience wise:

-Scratching the surface of back end (configured my own LAMP environment and have a local website with some basic PHP/JS/MySQL functions

-I've done 2/3 of the first ODIN Project (HTML/CSS)

-Completed some front-end online free "bootcamp" that was a pre-req for a paid java bootcamp I didn't pursue

-Getting somewhat savvy with git/github, IDEs, and very comfortable with operational logic and scoping from modding games

-Lots of IT experience, so I never really have configuration/interfacing issues

-finished the w3schools "webdev" track (JS/HTML/CSS/PHP/SQL) along with a few other

Where I'm at mentally:

-Haven't touched my PHP project in months

-Feel like I forgot everything I learned

-Feel like a fraud and like I probably have undiagnosed ADHD

-Constantly tempted to give up and dive into something even less likely to turn my life around

-Alienated from my friends who don't really understand why I'm struggling to get economic traction

The reason I'm interested in paired learning is because I believe in other people more than in myself - I struggle to invest in myself, working as a team on things always gives me limitless energy. If I work alone I typically will finish a step of the project I'm working on and then retreat away from the project rather than pushing it further continuously. Kinda just need a person that goes "okay next we need to..." and when they don't say that I say it, rinse repeat. That doesn't mean we constantly work, I know time is precious; it just means there is no official "hiatus".