Wake [she/her, they/them]

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Joined 10 months ago
Cake day: February 2nd, 2024
  • Wake [she/her, they/them]Mtotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns•Trans Megathread for the Week of November 4th, 2024 to November 10th, 2024
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    17 days ago

    So I'm going to a hair salon tomorrow. It'll be a day of firsts for me. It'll be the first time I've presented as fem in public somewhere other than at my therapists. It'll be my first time really doing anything fem in public. I'm stressed but excited. So to cope I'm trying on a bunch of different outfits right now to see what I like. I think I've settled on an outfit comprised of a gray teeshirt under a cute orange cardigan. I'm trying to decide if I should do the high waisted jeans I have, or a cute orange hippy skirt I like. I could do the skirt over the jeans or leggings if it stays cold and rainy like today. Decisions decisions

  • Wake [she/her, they/them]Mtotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns•Trans Megathread for the Week of 10/21 to 10/27
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    29 days ago

    Is this because you think you won't be able to convincingly do it anymore or because you are wanting to stop?

    A little of column A, a little of column B.

    I'm also talking about a day that is still months or a year away. I guess I just never gave much thought to the fact that one day "dead name" will be dead.

    applying with chosen name

    This isn't an option at the moment. It's bad enough that my boss found my resume on indeed. If he had found one with my chosen name it would have been so much worse. Some day though.

  • Wake [she/her, they/them]Mtotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns•Trans Megathread for the Week of 10/21 to 10/27
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    30 days ago
    Journaling, Navel Gazing

    So I'm several hours away this week for work training. This is the same place I was at when my egg cracked back in January. It's really weird being back here since so much has changed. 6 months of HRT and a lot of therapy will do that I suppose. I spent a lot of time last night ruminating about the year so far, and the things to come. So I might as well journal my thoughts.

    I can't believe the progress I've made. I have accomplished so much in my life this year so far. I've neglected so much for that last few decades and it feels good to get things done. On top of getting my life together, I also look so different and it's amazing. I have no idea how the cissies around me haven't noticed anything. Or maybe they have and just haven't said anything about it. I do worry about how much longer I can effectively boymode.

    On the topic of boymoding, it really hit me last week that one day soon I'll boymode for the last time. That day is approaching and I'm sure I'm not ready for it yet. I barely go out in public in girlmode, though I am getting braver. I really need a new job before I can do anything major, since being outed at work would probably get me fired. Most of my coworkers, all of my management, and a lot of my customers are violently transphobic.

    I've been applying for jobs like crazy. But I'm kinda on the fence about how to present for job interviews. I don't know if I should include pronouns in the resume, deadname and chosen name, or just use my chosen name. I am currently applying with just my dead name, and that's probably the easiest for the short term.

    Outside of all of that, I want to start streaming regularly. I need to set a schedule and stick to it. I think that streaming will help me work on my voice, as well as help me with my general anxiety. I'm surprised at how anxious I get when I stream, or hang out on vrchat, but it is getting better.

    Anyway, just want to end by saying I love all of you. cat-trans

  • Wake [she/her, they/them]Mtotraaaaaaannnnnnnnnns•Trans Megathread for the Week of 2024-10-07 to 2024-10-13 - ETR 600
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    1 month ago

    Tumble out of bed and I stumble to the kitchen Pour myself a cup of ambition And yawn and stretch and try to come to life Jump in the shower and the blood starts pumpin' Out on the street, the traffic starts jumpin' With folks like me on the job from nine to five

    Workin' nine to five, what a way to make a livin' Barely gettin' by, it's all takin' and no givin' They just use your mind and they never give you credit It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it Nine to five, for service and devotion You would think that I would deserve a fair promotion Want to move ahead but the boss won't seem to let me I swear sometimes that man is out to get me Mmmm

    They let you dream just to watch 'em shatter You're just a step on the bossman's ladder But you've got dreams he'll never take away In the same boat with a lot of your friends Waitin' for the day your ship'll come in And the tide's gonna turn an' it's all gonna roll your way

    Working nine to five, what a way to make a livin' Barely gettin' by, it's all takin' and no givin' They just use your mind and you never get the credit It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it Nine to five, yeah, they got you where they want you There's a better life and you think about it don't you It's a rich man's game no matter what they call it And you spend your life puttin' money in his wallet Nine to five, what a way to make a livin' Barely gettin' by, it's all takin' and no givin' They just use your mind and they never give you credit It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it Nine to five, yeah, they got you where they want you There's a better life and you think about it don't you It's a rich man's game no matter what they call it And you spend your life puttin' money in his wallet

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