Jeez you're right about that bot giving me a bit to think about. Am I happy? Am I confused? What is reality?

I only recently found out myself. But I think I would rather try to do some things to enjoy that side of me, because you only live once you know? Even if I'm older, and I may never be able to truly become it, I just would want to feel that bit better that it could give me, and that it has given me when I do something even as simple as shaving! Its literally one of the cheesiest things I've ever said but I'll say it again: you only live once, so why not live that a tiny bit better, just a bit less depressed. Sure, it isn't a solution, nor a full embracing, but we won't ever get another chance to live it. I want to spend it getting to love myself or at least know more of myself.

Idk if its helpful, im bad at advice, and I'm new to this trans thing myself.