I must have an undiagnosed SOMETHING that has been causing me to have full-ass panic attacks before work and I've now missed three days this week..... I have no idea what to do and instead of solving it my plan is apparently to lay in bed and freak the fuck out about everything that is now piling up and getting worse. Like I've always known something is up but I should really be able to like take a shower or make lunch why is that so hard. Really makes a guy wish he had healthcare or something, but more importantly right now is that I have bills that are due and my paycheck just won't cover it because I didn't fucking go to work!

I was going to post this in mutualaid but I might as well just lay here and watch things get worse all day

  • the_post_of_tom_joad [any, any]
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    7 months ago

    Hi. I could have written this myself, like word for word, so here's the advice i wish i had taken. take a baby step, every day, o get yourself some help, because if you try to lay low and wait for it to pass like depression you'll find that it only slooooowly and inexorably gets worse.

    If the search for help itself gives you anxiety (it did for me) then even compiling a list of sites that you can read later when you're ready counts. And if it doesn't count for you, you're wrong cuz it counted for me.

    Sometimes that is too much too. So if you're feeling like you can't move but you're also about to explode, take your breaths slowly, and body part by body part, focus on where it is in space and how it feels. When my whole body is buzzing itself inside out that is what i use

    Solidarity brother. You can dm me if you want to, but not for big answers just... im going through the same thing