I think recently I've realized that I'm not at 70% mental health like I thought, but I'm actually at like 10% and I've been lying to myself that I'm at 70%. I've been suffering from horrible anxiety lately that revolves around having no money and undiagnosed mental health problems, but "freaking out and skipping work" is not a winning strategy tbh. I've been trying to take "baby steps" as advised by some wonderful comrades, and so I:
- Ate food
- Negotiated paying one bill late
- Signed up for a "free" clinic appointment (there are out of pocket fees, but maybe I can show them my bank account lol) until I can figure out getting healthcare of some kind
But for now, I'm simply going to be short on bills because I've missed work and don't get PTO. Literally any amount helps because I think I'm like 75c short of my water bill which hits tomorrow.
I only have cashapp, $ghostsburner, but if I can figure out how to not doxx myself with paypal or venmo then I'll add those too. Thanks so much for y'alls support in general
can't cashapp but ping me if you add anything else
I definitely feel the lying to yourself that your mental health is okayish when its bad :(