Every screening and official diagnostic I've taken has me scoring max ADHD points and every time someone describes a symptom I'm left confused that other people don't have them.
Will my personality change? I feel like being a disorganized disheveled loud interrupter is most of my personality at this point idk.
I've never done any stimulants beyond drinking a million coffees per day so i have some anxiety about this
I only notice being off my medication, and Im much more erratic when running chores and more easily stressed out since I feel like I have to keep track of a gorillion things.
Also its basically impossible for me to listen to a lecture I just copy the blackboard and read it later, and if I do read it I find it impossible to motivate myself to start or to keep going.
Ritalin has been a game changer for me. Its still not easy, I cant keep pace with my wife in terms of running chores but I dont take three times as long anymore, unless Im very tired or stressed out but without medication I wouldn't be able to do anything at all so it's still an improvement.