Every screening and official diagnostic I've taken has me scoring max ADHD points and every time someone describes a symptom I'm left confused that other people don't have them.
Will my personality change? I feel like being a disorganized disheveled loud interrupter is most of my personality at this point idk.
I've never done any stimulants beyond drinking a million coffees per day so i have some anxiety about this
I have never taken medication in my life, so I can't tell you. But I can tell you this:
When you're taking drugs (for recreational purposes) for the first time, the general advice is to start with a low dosage (like, half of what is "normal"). That significantly reduces the potential to do harm, and gives you an "easy" introduction.