[CW: (Internalized) Queerphobia]
I have not convinced myself that I should be proud of my queer identity. I've seen 100 reasons to be ashamed of it and 0 to be proud of it.
Pride month seems like a joke to me. It's a month where we're supposed to celebrate ourselves for who we are, but it only generates the opposite attitude for me.
You can be "proud" of yourself for being queer, but that's only if you're not too queer. I am too queer for even other queer people to think I deserve to exist, let alone experience pride in the way I exist.
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Not being cishet is based and revolutionary in this hellworld of ours, that alone is reason enough to be proud, what reasons are there to feel shame that aren't capitalist lies?
The issue is that even queer people, apparently even queer radicals, don't like me because I'm an unacceptable kind of queer. I can't help but be ashamed about it at this point.
I don't understand how that could be, I'm sorry your local queer community is bullshit D: