A lot has changed for me this past month, the biggest change would be working again so now I have a wage. Work is boring and sometimes stressful due to being around too many people so I think to combat that stress I’ve been going to the store at a certain time and buying nutrigrains and heating them in the microwave, I eat about four of them at work and the remainder at home. I have an obvious eating disorder I don’t want to gain any weight so I’ve been on a strict diet of rice and bean every day for the past year. The diet didn’t come about because of my ED it came about because it was the cheapest option for me but now even though I can cook other things I don’t really want to change anything, except now after adding nutrigrain to my diet.
I don’t feel that great, I’m very tired now when I used to have a lot of energy, I want to sleep more and stay in bed and not get out, I feel really down, I keep pinching my tummy and don’t like how I look even though there is probably no change visually I just feel like there is. I don’t know if this is depression from work or depression from adding bad sugars to my diet, the stress from the job makes me eat more and want to just dump my diet or whatever it is and just start eating whatever I want, that’s what a lot of my coworkers have done because I guess they’re depressed too, my supervisor told me he used to be active then he just started eating more once he started working here, I feel like that has stuck and I’m now just going off on a binge of nutrigrains.
How do I stop eating sugar
I had this rule when I became a mod that I didn't want to let people glorify disordered eating. There was an early post about ACAB (all calories are bastards) that didn't sit right with me. To that end, my response to you would be addressing the disordered eating instead of tips to eliminate sugar. Cause cigarettes and coffee would probably do it, but that's not what we're promoting on the fitness board even in this case for which I have, in a practical sense, abdicated responsibility.
Though rice and beans compliment each other to create a complete essential amino acids profile, I wouldn't say that eating those alone would create a paragon of athletic performance. I would assert, probably unopposed, that your food insecurity contributed negatively to your health. So maybe you got used to it, you were already vulnerable to not feeling great. Perhaps when your diet changed a little, the sensation was big because you were already walking that direction. It would be presumptive of me to make any claims about the mechanism - like assuming the big dump of sugar was a lot for your weakened digestive system.
My prescription would be to focus more on your athleticism than your aesthetics. Clearly the oversight of a therapist and a nutritionist would be good for your health, mental and physical. If you had a modest layer of fat that you could rely on for fuel for running, but you could run 20 miles at a time, your athleticism would be superior even if you perceived your aesthetics more negatively. That capacity would indicate a healthier body. If you address the lethargy with foods like fibrous, green vegetables, lean meats (or veg equivalent), and oils+nuts+butter you would feel better.
This would mean taking responsibility for your diet and exercise - meal prepping, calorie counting, and cardio/resistance training. The pay off would be energy and capacity that would be opposite of feeling lethargic like you don't want to get out of bed. And this would also be asking yourself to sidestep the impulse that no doubt contributes to an ED - wanting to simply be skinny. The intention would be to fuel you for athletic activity. Not keep you as skinny as you can bare on a restrictive diet
To that end, we have resources in the sidebar. R*ddit has a comprehensive guide and we also have the comprehensive guide from... another origin. Either of those would get you ready to go find a cook book you like and double the recipe and freeze some for meal prepping.