If everything is boring then it sounds like those $50 therapists were right about you having depression (or similar), at least. Your options at this point are pretty much to pursue some kind of treatment, or to just accept living with it. Treatment probably means more therapy and trying out antidepressents until something sticks. Living with it means you're going to miss out on living a "normal" life. Ultimately it comes down to how okay you are with how you are now and if you actually care about having a "normal" life.

Sorry if this seems harsh or unhelpful. :meow-hug: