sure, it's maybe it won't all work out like that, but your options are change or accept who you are. without change or growth in yourself theres no reason to expect change externally. based on your responses the change doesn't seem to be an option right now, but hopefully when you're 40 youll be a different person in some ways and youll look back on this and have advice for someone else like i'm trying to give you. ive been where you are but i didnt really have a place on the internet to vent then. when i was 20 i thought nobody would ever want to date me and that was incorrect. it took years to become less shy. if making connections is something you want, you'll have to make the attempt and hope it's reflected.